It is not easy,
How to live
Rewire the soul,
Walls you let fall,
Rewind and unwind
Memories of happy days,
Unique and amazing,
Some extraordinary ways
To carry the world on your
And calm the seas
In your eyes,
To see clearly of all you left behind,
With guilt weighing you down,
It’s not easy
To remember how strong
You were all along,
Once you been broken down,
And can’t be put together,
To remind every broken piece
of the cosmic reality,
Of the constellations that make up
The galaxy of your soul.
It’s not easy
To unlearn giving up
And be your person,
Kind and beautiful
And accept yourself
For the person you have become,
Strange, wild and beautiful,
Just missing a little fairy dust,
And to build your own path again,
For once you were,
Someone who would love,
And not run from life
As it’s not easy
Once you stop living
To Relearn to sober up.
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I don’t know what to write,
The pen seems like an old friend,
I have been gone too long,
Sulking more and more everyday,
And now when I am back,
I don’t wish to stain papers with my sadness,
I want every drop of ink,
Dripping with happiness,
But I find none,
No fairy tales,
No merry songs of the vagabonds,
I got nothing to offer,
Other than my heart,
Pumping the guilt of every sin,
And every black,
Now mixed with red,
Flowing like poison in my veins,
I want to begin again,
But the ghosts of past seem to have fallen in love with my scent,
The scent of every heartache I ever felt,
And while there is still time to add some words,
None to withdraw one.
Whatever I write is too fragile,
Too imperfect like the echo of my thoughts,
My mistakes and my weaknesses,
All secrets are out now,
And I again find myself wishing,
To take it all back,
And never return.
We are the lost cause,
The generation that is always wrong,
The world around is falling apart,
But the soul still trying to stand strong.
Feelings erased leaving our hearts weightless,
Not having the courage to confess.
Drunk on the concept of love,
Drowning in the darkness,
Desperately trying to keep the head above.
All secrets oozing out from the windows to our soul,
Trying to escape the world ignoring every call.
And then throwing down the cups of fire down the throat.
Burning every ounce of feeling still left behind,
Trying to shut our ghastly minds.
Smoking our days away,
Refusing to eat to please someone,
Who won’t even matter oneday.
Everything we touch falls apart,
Making us question everything we did from the start.
We are the generation parents warn their children about,
Little did they know we too were those kids someday.
Who threw us there in the first place?
Our own thoughts,
Our own minds,
Our ignorance of everything bright.
Its easy to be sad,
To not do anything,
To accept other’s opinion of us,
But whats hard is to pick ourselves up,
To challenge the odds.
Its not the world,
Its not the time,
If we want to blame anyone,
We must blame our own mind.
We might be forgiven on the judgment day,
But isn’t it too early to give up on recovery today?