May be you are my heaven,
But what if i am your hell?
Maybe change comes with pain,
But what if i am too weak?
Maybe I don’t deserve my name in ur diary,
But what if I am still thankful for it?
Maybe I have this smile so beautiful,
But what if It’s just a mask for a sad soul?
Maybe I lied and hurt you,
But what if I only wanted you to see through it and not believe it?
Maybe I say I don’t believe in love,
But what if that’s all i need right now?
Maybe I wrote your name in pencil,
But what if I never plan on erasing you in the first place?
Maybe my thoughts were like gray mist,
But what if I have found clear skies now?
Maybe my heart is sheilded too strongly,
But what if its just too fragile?
Maybe I broke you,
But what if it was me who was broken already?
Maybe I really needed you,
But what if I felt embarrassed for asking so much?
Maybe I shouldn’t be writing this,
But what if I hope you could read this?
Maybe its too late,
But I can only try to get this out n put it in the universe.
It is not easy,
How to live
Rewire the soul,
Walls you let fall,
Rewind and unwind
Memories of happy days,
Unique and amazing,
Some extraordinary ways
To carry the world on your
And calm the seas
In your eyes,
To see clearly of all you left behind,
With guilt weighing you down,
It’s not easy
To remember how strong
You were all along,
Once you been broken down,
And can’t be put together,
To remind every broken piece
of the cosmic reality,
Of the constellations that make up
The galaxy of your soul.
It’s not easy
To unlearn giving up
And be your person,
Kind and beautiful
And accept yourself
For the person you have become,
Strange, wild and beautiful,
Just missing a little fairy dust,
And to build your own path again,
For once you were,
Someone who would love,
And not run from life
As it’s not easy
Once you stop living
To Relearn to sober up.
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Get into character,
Dare not be different,
Difference is flaw.
Heart be damned,
Damned be those,
Weird and misfits?
Equations of loss.
The way you think?
Who cares for that?
How you look ?
Well we can talk about that.
Speak your mind,
But be ‘appropriate.’
Want to live your life?
Don’t forget the rules society create.
Lost yourself already?
But I told you to be yourself anyway!
You can’t fall.
And if you do better hide it if you want to make it to your goal!
Wrapped in covers on bed you’ll lie,
Cry if you want,
Just be back to work before half past nine.
Your heart will be broken,
Pain will subside,
Stitch it together,
In just anyone you can’t confide.
Humans are selfish creatures you see,
If you find one you better put your best smile
Because they all wear masks,
A true one?
That’s a myth girl,
Myth created to keep this artificial world alive.
Its just blurry lines
No sense of wrong and right
Everything is a pretense
Just enraged voices in my head,
Remnants of a distant past.
Silenced with lies.
Galaxies are made up truths
A definition of infinite,
Infiltrated with the shadows of life.
Or just another word for the light that flickr,
As your soul burns with limitless effort.
When u don’t have best of life
All u wanna do is hide n die.
Every desire turned to dust
Waiting for time to run its course.
There is nothing more poisonous than remorse.
Damaged by demons we can’t escape
Irreparable wounds rooted in veins.
Random fragments of memories laced with regrets,
Scattered in bloodstream hard to accept.
The ink splatters in yellow space.
Also trying to find their place.
The greatest beauty wrapped in grey,
Disguised in something unwanted.
Questioning one’s existence,
Faithless in this stride
Choking on your dreams,
Wicked in everyone’s eyes.
But darling wherever you go,
It’ll take a lot of love to hate this life.